Summer time

Hey everyone!

So I woke up late today and totally felt like being ultra lazy, so I decided to go through my Inbox on my myspace and put some pictures up from Facebook and stuff. I found all of these messages from people that I haven't talked to in like 5 years and I messaged two of them being like "hey do you remember me?" haha hopefully they do.

My cat is currently hunting birds behind my glass window while sunbathing haha.

What is going on with all of this rain?! I haven't been able to work on getting my natural olive skin tone back because everything is flooded!

Today is six awesome months with Jonathan,he's coming to Queens to see me and so we can have delicious Mexican food!! Yay!

I went to Chili's for the first time a few days ago, not bad not bad.

My mom wants me to lose 10 pounds, I want to lose 10 pounds, she made dinner last night and I complained about not having this awesome sauce with the side dish she made and she made a deal with me that if I lose 10 pounds then she's make it again ha!

I need to find myself an agent so I can start working at commercials or small time things you know?

Well there is my stupid rant for the day, I am going to try to post more things soon and some pictures of the stuff I am making to sell.

Hope everyone is good!

I'm Selling Stuff!

Hey!

So I have decided to start selling some of my stuff that I have either made or just don't need anymore. Instead of making a website or selling my stuff on Etsy or Ebay where I would have to pay a fee for posting my items as well as a portion of my sales I'm just going to post stuff here on my blog. I have a bunch of stuff to get rid of. Here is a list of some things:

Stuff I've made:

-Hemp necklaces with pricey beads.
-Hemp bracelets with nice beads as well.
-Handmade lotion in a variety of scents and oil combinations.
-Bath salts with an array of different scents.
-Some paintings.
-Soon to be making small bags made out of cool shirts.
-And other small things.

Things I don't need:

-A small CD tower.
-Possibly a VCR.
-A few books I do not need anymore.
-Stuffed animals that I do not need.
-An array of shirts, sweaters, pants and other really cool clothes of mine that I just can't keep anymore.
-And a lot of other stuff!

Please email me if you are already interested at jguiarro.epicnext@gmail.com

I will be posting pictures of my items very soon so keep checking in!

Thanks for looking!

Nothin' Special

A lot has happened since the last time I've posted. I can't really remember all of it but there have been stressful times, tired times, hallucinating times and definitely high times these past first two weeks of classes. I also started volunteering at the Co-op on Tuesdays from 6-9PM so COME VISIT! I think I might be taking up another shift as well on Fridays or 9-midnight on Wednesdays so who knows.
Today is Wednesday February 4th 2009 and it is 11:37 AM. Why am I in the library so early you may ask? Because I had an 8:30 this morning and have been running errands since class got out.
So far I dropped target archery because when I tried to drop it online I messed it up, naturally. So I got that covered and now I have to head over to the Performing Arts Center to pick up an application for ushering. Then I have a meeting at 1PM at the Co-op. Then it is homework and resting time before 6:30PM when I have to attend a new media lecture in the Neuberger. After that I have to pick up the books that I have to read for Mark and finish my homework! So much to do in such little time!!

Anyway...

I have been good though. I have been really really really really happy with Jonathan, he is so kickass its ridiculous!

On that note I'm gonna get going on the things I have to do today so I'll post again soon.

Dearest Otis,

Sittin' in the morning sun,
I`ll be sittin' when the evening come,
Watching the ships roll in,
And I'll watch 'em roll away again, yeah,
I'm sittin' on the dock of the bay,
Watching the tide roll away, ouh,
I'm just sittin' on the dock of the bay,
Wasting time.

I left my home in Georgia,
Headed for the Frisco bay
I've had nothing to live for,
Look like nothings gonna come my way,

So I'm just go sit on the dock of the bay
Watching the tide roll away,
I'm sittin' on the dock of the bay,
Wasting time

Look like nothings gonna change,
Everything still remain the same,
I can't do what ten people tell me to do,
So I guess I'll remain the same, yes,

Sittin' here resting my bones,
And this loneliness won't leave me alone, yes,
Two thousand miles I roam
Just to make this dock my home

Now I'm just go sit at the dock of the bay
Watching the tide roll away, ooh
Sittin' on the dock of the bay
Wasting time.....

Fun Times on Long Island.

• So I just got back from getting my hair cut! It is cute but I feel like I am a mother with it haha, it makes me look older that's for sure, but it'll grow out nicely so that's good. NO MORE CRAP!! its all my natural hair!!

• Yesterday I took the train to Babylon to visit Jonathan. We chilled at his house for a little bit then we headed over to his Father's house. Jon has two younger siblings, his younger sister Alexa who will be five in May and his younger brother Lucas who is two. They are so funny! We went to Friendly's and I got me some chicken strips! yum yum! Lucas calls his Coca-cola "Black cola" and Alexa got a Shirley Temple, so cute! I love Jon's Dad Christopher, he is awesome! So chill and full of life. The two are such a hand full! They got balloons from Friendly's and we were playing with them for a really long time. In the car I couldn't stop laughing, I was crying they were so cute. I sat next to Lucas in his car seat and Alexa sat in the back. I put my finger to my mouth to Lucas to make him quieter but all he did was smile at me and said "what?" so I said "what?" and he repeated it and we both started cracking up! It was adorable. Then when we got back to their house they showed me all of their toys! and their rooms!! And Alexa showed me a photo album and this book of finding nemo that narrates the story in a few pages. So her and I looked through it then Lucas looked through it sitting next to us and you have to keep the binding straight for it to work when you turn the page and he kept letting the book bend, so it wasn't working. I was reading a Sesame Street book with Alexa and without looking I fixed the book for Lucas and all of a sudden I feel this spray on my hand. He sneezed on me! So I laughed at him and then Alexa pretended to sneeze on my hand after it was really cute. I think the best thing that happened was Alexa and I were reading the back of the book and there was a big bowl of alphabet soup with little flaps to open up each letter which had little pictures that start with the letter behind it. Alexa and I got up to the letter "O" and I asked, "where would O be?" then glancing over it it said "Oh! O!" and Alexa turned to me with a huge smile and asked "Oh, O?" and I repeated it and so did she and we cracked up at it, I thought it was so cute she thought that was funny. I was thinking of my Mom saying "Oh!" all the time after she repeated it. I am a huge sucker for people who think I am funny. By the end of it, it was tickling time and then bed time, so Jon and I left. As we left Jon's Dad kissed my cheek which was really nice. The kids opened the door after we left to say goodbye again. I love them already I want to chill with them again, they were awesome.

• After we left and went back to his Mom's house I was all smiles and giggles it was funny.

• We chilled all night pretty much but then I got a bad migrane so Jon gave me two of his mom hydrocodone which was awesome haha. I took the first one and ate some bread and this lentil dish my mom and I made before I left. I remolded their butter haha I was high what can I say. After that I was feeling nice and then I took another one and ended up passing out and not really enjoying it because it was like 5 AM ha.

• Anyway today I got a hair cut and that is my update pretty much haha.

Peace and Love!

THE WORKERS ARE GOING HOME!!

Music: Weezer obviously
Feeling: In pain!

So just to start, I am in a hell of a lot of pain. Last night I had to pee really badly like all night. And the second to last time I peed I had blood in my urine! I have no idea if it is a UTI or a yeast infection (I was given two days worth of antibiotics last week from Jonathan's mother for my bronchitis). I don't ever want to experience this again just for the record. But anyway sorry if that was too much information, just had to get it out there.
On a lighter note, I love my friends. I love surrounding myself with great people from all over and I love what everyone brings to the table. I can not wait to be back at Purchase. I miss my Middle School friends too and my High School friends are kind of mad at me because I haven't gone to visit them up at SUNY Oneonta, but that's mad far! And I don't have money or a car! But I still love them. Hanging out with my old friends really reminded me of honest friendships and how much people grow.
Last night I got a little upset though. Jon spent the night and we were laying in my bed before he had to go upstairs (my parents don't let anybody sleep in my bed but Nachie, not even Ollie!) but anyway so we were just chillen and I was just thinking of my birthday last semester. I had fun and all but I just thought it was going to be more eventful. I don't think I would have had as good as a time if Erica and Anthony didn't show up. Everyone else just seemed to bail on me. I mean even Michelle, she didn't come over until like after midnight! And she only stayed for like an hour or so you know? I love everyone who was there like you Renee! But besides that nobody knew the other people who were there! People totally crashed my party haha. So many people that I invited just didn't show up, and Jonathan is guilty of it too. Him and I were talking about how he was going to make up another time that he bailed out on me and how awesome of a b-day gift I was going to get but he never showed (and it was in his place too!) and I never got that b-day gift. It just made me feel so under-appreciated. I feel like I go out of my way sometimes just to make people feel better about themselves and then people leave me out in the dust. If I didn't give so much I don't think people would be so close to me. I know who really cares for me and who just over looks me and it just hurts thats all. I don't know, I don't mean to be a debby-downer but this has just been on my mind since last night. After saying how I felt I was upset last night, and I didn't say anything, I had nothing to say and Jon said he will never do anything like that again. Which is cool I guess but that's not the point you know? I wasn't saying all that stuff to get him to say that or anything, I just felt so over looked. I don't know the little things really effect me...
Tonight I was supposed to hang out with my best friend Anthony. I love this kid with all my heart, he is such a great guy and a wonderful friend, always there when you need him. He called me a little while ago and he hasn't called me back with final details with what we're doing, it's been a hassel because he hasn't paid his phone bill in mad long so he has to use my ex boyfriend Colin's phone.
Oh man Colin! I wish him and I worked out, but he broke up with me because I was a virgin and he is 4 years older than me so I was 16 when we were going out and I would'nt give in. But he has completely changed! I haven't seen him for a while but everytime I do I can't help but flirt with him! I think I can handle myself better around him since I am in a fantastic relationship now and the last time I saw him I was with Tom you know?
Oh speaking of asshole, I got a text last night while in my bed with Jon and it was at 4:30AM and all it said was "Wow". Asshole, I can't stand him anymore. I just want to help him get a therapist or something but I can't talk to him its so weird. I kinda hate him actually. That's a very strong word but I think it might be fitting for our situation. I was such an idiot to put myself through such abuse, I can't believe I lost a full semester with my girls and my family and friends of my own. But what are you gonna do right?
Anyway, I guess I should get ready to go out, I have a feeling Anthony is on his way without letting me know so I should get a move on.
Oh and one last thing, I love that my cat isn't scared of Jonathan! He is usually such a jittery kitty but Nachos lets him pick him up and kiss him! It's adorable and it makes me so happy haha.
Ok bye for real.

Love and Peace

The New Year

• The New Year is always a crazy idea for me, I never know wither or not to be excited for it or to fear it in wonder. So many things have happened within the first week and a half of the New Year that it is a great feeling to being with. I saw old friends from middle school which elated me beyond belief. I love them all so much and truly miss them and wish they were in my life more, I know it is hard being in school and all but I hope it doesn't get worse after we all finally graduate. I spent a good amount of time with my new boyfriend which was well needed. I hung out with one of my best friends Gerard which got a little upsetting when I got all weird from being so frustrated but I'll get to that in a second. I uploaded a bunch of CDs that I just had lying around which is really awesome because there was some really good stuff on them. The only sad thing is that my ipod died! I was never one for the ipod but since I uploaded all these songs I wanted to share some music with friends and I couldn't!

• I was supposed to see another best friend of mine Erica today but because of the storm tomorrow I bailed out on her, which I feel bad about but it's not like I was just lazy.

• I had two meetings this week with my Company EpicNEXT so that was extremely exciting. I am thinking about re-writing and finishing my play that I wrote in High School. Everyone I talk about it with thinks it is really good so who knows. I want to be able to have it finished soon maybe by the summer so my company can produce it. I mean seriously how many people have that opportunity to be able to not only have people read their play but to actually have it put up for a few shows you know?

• I love being home but I am really excited to go back to school. One because I miss my friends so much and I just want to get to us enjoying each other's company again. And also I am actually excited about taking classes that interest me so this should be a great semester.

• My mom gave me a composition book tonight so I can just jot down all these crazy ideas in my head. I know Renee, you told me to keep a journal which I have from the summer that I will start up again but my mom suggested getting a tape recorder to keep with me which I think is such a great idea so in the mean time I have this cheap book which is good.

• I really want to pick up an instrument, I have a keyboard and a guitar. I think I'll bring the keyboard to school when I have more space because it is compatible with my computer and it has headphones which is great.

• I am going to start belly dancing again as well as ballet, I have so many aspirations that are small and large that it gets me nervous sometimes because I want to accomplish everything but at the same time I am so lazy!

• I want to start playing chess more frequently, I wish I had a set of my own to take to school because I think it will not only help me in concentration but in Fencing as well. That's another thing I am really excited to go back to is Fencing Club!! I love it, I need to get my own equipment and such but yea ha!

• I'm excited for life, I am really..... that is it for now I guess, I'm all out of ideas : )

Peace and Love!